The Scream

tur·moil/ˈtɜrmɔɪl/

–noun
1.
a state of great commotion, confusion, or disturbance; tumult; agitation; disquiet: mental turmoil caused by difficult decisions.
2.
Obsolete. harassing labor.

You just wish you could tell somebody and it actually make a difference. You're always the one who smiles and moves forward. Your feelings don't matter. Growing up sucks. It's nothing to look forward to....all that happens is you get to pay your own bills, work non-stop, and your friends get boyfriends/get married move away to other towns and forget you. You're not important enough to be seen once a week, much less to have your calls answered. What makes you think that they could actually care about YOU? No one stops to think about you. Your life is seemingly full. You are the caretaker of four. Lives depend on you. But they would get by. They can and they have gotten by without you. They don't need you, no one does. You are not appreciated. You are not wanted. You are not cared for. No one really cares. The only thing is, you know you're wrong....you just wish you could prove that.